Personal Health

How to Talk With Your Kids About Abortion—Especially If the Abortion Was Your Own

And what to do if your child was told by someone else that abortion is wrong.

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In coming decades, better birth control like long-acting IUDs and implants may make elective abortion virtually obsolete. But for now, unsought pregnancy is still painfully common; over a million American women have an abortion each year.

Women end pregnancies for many reasons, but often one of those reasons is that they take motherhood very seriously. Some have commitments, limitations or dreams that are not compatible with raising a flourishing child. Many others want to be the best mothers they can be, either to their future children or children they already have. Similarly, men who support their partners in ending an ill-timed or unwanted pregnancy often care deeply about fatherhood, and they go on to have children when circumstances are better.

This means that a lot of parents have one or more abortions in their past. If you are one of these mothers or fathers—or simply someone who believes that abortion access helps women and men and families to thrive—how and when should you explain this to your children?

Match the conversation to the child

As a psychologist and a mother, my belief is that it is never too early to tell your children about your abortion experience or about sexuality and family planning more generally, provided it is done in a way that fits their developmental stage. My husband and I have been open with our daughters about family decisions including our abortion since the time they were in preschool. From their point of view, they have always known that mommy and daddy stopped an unhealthy pregnancy so they could make a healthy baby instead—daughter number one—and then later, mommy and daddy wanted her to have a buddy: daughter number two.

At every age, we parents must find ways to talk with our children about hope and plans, disappointment and loss, choosing and responsibility, and what it means to be a loving family together. At every age, we share our values. At every age, we teach our children about concepts like healthy, enough and too much, and not yet. Abortion involves all of these things, and as a parent, you know how to have these conversations because you know your child.

So, talking with your child about abortion is like any other conversation in which you share your values and thoughts about how to live wisely and well, in prudence and balance and love and compassion. You keep it simple and take cues from your child about when you’ve said enough for now.

Talking about abortion is also a matter of storytelling, because stories about your life (or the lives of other people) are just that, stories, which again is something familiar to children. In thinking about how to tell your child about an abortion, it can be helpful to think about what other kinds of stories your child is able to absorb. What kinds of words and concepts do you use to talk about your day or current events? What kind of vocabulary does your child use to tell you about his or her experiences? What books hit the sweet spot when you read aloud—or when your child reads to herself? All of these offer clues to how you can tell an abortion story in words that make the experience understandable.

Use concrete analogies to make things clearer

The process of family formation is unfamiliar to your child, as are educational and career planning, financial planning, intimate relationship dynamics, and many other factors that play into abortion decisions. So, you may find that it helps to draw analogies to parts of life that your child has experienced first-hand or learned about previously.

  • On sequencing: We lay out your clothes in the evening and pack you lunch in the morning before school so you will be ready for school. Birds build nests before they lay eggs, and foxes make dens to get ready for their babies. Parents want to get a job and make a home and find a loving partner before trying to have a baby so they will be ready to give their kid the healthiest, happiest life.
  • On budgeting: Kids like you save up money for a special toy; families save up money for a special vacation—or a special baby.
  • On timing: Grandma buys seeds for her garden and then waits for the spring so that they will get the sun and warmth they need. She tries to plant at the right time in the right place so that the sprouts will grow strong and healthy.
  • On enough and too much: Imagine if a farmer has a small bit of land and just enough grass for 10 goats. What would happen if he came home with 20 or 30? Or think about our dog (cat, rabbit, guinea pig). What do we do to take care of her? Now imagine if we had 10 dogs or cats or guinea pigs.

Don’t forget the end of the story

Nobody has an abortion for the sake of the medical procedure itself. Women or couples choose an abortion for the sake of the lives and loves that become possible afterward. That is the culmination of your abortion story, so don’t tell just the first half of the story. What did your abortion allow you to do? With whom did it allow you to share your love? Might that include the child with whom you are talking?

In fact, does this child exist in part because you were able to wait and have a baby when the time was right? You can let him or her know that. Many parents say to themselves, If I had gone ahead with that other pregnancy, my life would have been different and I wouldn’t have the kids I have with the partner I have. In our case, having this particular family would have been physically impossible. We told our daughter, “Mom got pregnant with you before that other unhealthy pregnancy would have been finished. That means we couldn’t have both. There are many possible futures, and letting go of that other one created the possibility of this one, with you in it. When you were born and we fell in love with you, we were very happy we chose this one.”

The most common emotion following an abortion is relief. But feelings can be complicated. As with any important life decision—buying a house, choosing a spouse—a percentage of women who decide either to end or to carry forward a surprise pregnancy will afterward experience regret and wish they had chosen differently. Also, a woman who chooses an abortion for health reasons or because of difficult circumstances may experience a sense of grief or loss even if she feels confident that her decision was the right one. Lastly, some small percentage of women who have an abortion may afterward experience hormonal fluctuations akin to postpartum depression. As your child is able to process complexity, it is okay to be honest about the bad along with the good. In fact, your experience may provide a valuable opportunity to model how grownups make the best decisions we can and then live with the decisions we have made.

It helps to understand nature’s process

Talking about abortion may mean that you need to add to your child’s understanding of reproduction itself. If your child is young, you may need to start by explaining that everything that lives begins with a seed that gets fertilized and then grows into a sprout or embryo and then grows into a plant or animal. You can let her know—because it’s true—that all plants and animals make lots of extra seeds and lots of extra sprouts or embryos so that at just the right time and place the healthy ones can grow into a plant or animal of their kind.

Even some adults don’t fully understand that reproduction is a big funnel. Nature’s way of producing healthy offspring is by making lots of extras (some of which aren’t formed quite right) and then winnowing down to the ones that are healthy and well situated to thrive. In mammals, spontaneous abortion is a normal, common part of this process. In human beings, most fertilized eggs and embryos fail to implant or get spontaneously aborted by the mother’s body, often because the embryo isn’t healthy or the mother’s body isn’t ready. Therapeutic abortion complements this natural process like antibiotics complement natural antibodies.

Babies are more precious than embryos

Most of the time simple answers suffice, and it is generally best to focus on the values and story we discussed earlier, including the good things that followed from the abortion. But at some point, you may need to inoculate your child against anti-abortion messages he or she will hear from other people (or address messages he or she has already heard). Chief among these is the idea that abortion kills babies and that people who either have or provide abortions are murderers.

Most children instinctively protect babies, and they know that hurting little creatures is bad, so they are particularly vulnerable to anti-abortion language. That said, no matter what your child’s age, he or she is capable of understanding the difference between an egg and a chicken, or an acorn and an oak tree, or an embryo and a baby, and that this difference matters.

Depending on the circumstances and what has been said in the past or questions that come up, you may choose to describe or even show what gets removed during a typical abortion. (It is a little round squishy thing between the size of a grape and a tennis ball, like the inside of an egg without the shell.) You might ask if your child has ever seen a bird egg that broke before it was ready to hatch. Here is a slightly squishy photo of a fetal bird and one of an embryonic rabbit and one of a human embryo. Or, here is a beautiful image of a human embryo still in the sac at seven weeks gestation, the most common stage of development for an abortion.

If your child reports that someone—a grandparent or stepparent or school friend—says abortion is killing babies, don’t simply let it go, even if you have to wait for a private opportunity to bring it back up. Nip anti-abortion rhetoric in the bud like you would any kind of false information. You might ask gently, “Do I seem like the kind of person who would kill babies?” (No.) “You are right. Abortion is very common. Millions of mothers have an abortion every year, and they would not kill babies. They love their babies and children, just like I love you.”

Remind them of the difference between a baby and an embryo or fetus. Again, concrete analogies can be useful:

  • If I came home from the store with a carton of (fertilized) eggs, could I say that I have 12 chickens or even chicks?
  • If I had a bag of almonds, could I offer to sell you 100 almond trees? Why not?

Or you might say something like this: “Some people get confused about the difference between a baby and an embryo, but babies are more important than embryos.” Then talk about what some of the differences are: A baby is this big, it can look at you, it may not be able to talk, but it can feel sad or mad or hungry or thirsty or happy or sleepy or alarmed or content. A baby can want something. A baby can feel warm or cold, and it can feel you when you touch it. An embryo might be the size of a crumb or a pea or a golf ball or a tennis ball, or even an ostrich egg, but it can’t do any of those things because it hasn’t developed a brain—just the very beginnings. Once it grows a bit, it looks kind of like a miniature baby on the outside a long time before it has the stuff that makes it into a full-fledged baby.

If need be, address the anti-abortion movement

If your child has been or will be exposed to anti-abortion activists, you also may need to offer a simple explanation for the anti-abortion movement as a whole. Mine runs something like this:

“Some people think that a god should be in charge of who has babies, that people shouldn’t get to decide whether and when to make a new child. They convinced a bunch of other people (like Aunt Susie or Cousin John) that every embryo is a baby, and that all of them are precious to the god even though most of them just fall on out of a woman’s body. Those people get really upset about abortions. Some of them march and carry signs, and sometimes the signs even have pictures of actual dead babies or embryos that were almost done growing into babies but had something wrong. They say that when women have abortions they are murdering babies and that it is a sin.But I don’t think that; in fact it seems kind of silly to me.”

At this point you might cycle back through some of what you have said about the consequential differences between embryos and babies.

Alternately, you might pivot to talk about why you think it is important that all families can decide whether and when to have a child. All children experience first hand the fact that parenting is a lot of work and that kids need and want a lot from their parents. This direct experience helps them to understand that nobody should be a parent except by choice—when they are ready to do that work and love a child with their whole heart. Kids also have a keen sense of fairness, and will understand instinctively that it’s not fair if people who have more money can decide when to have a kid but people who are poor can’t.

Put on your own oxygen mask first

It should go without saying that you will be able to have matter-of-fact, calming, honest conversations with your child only if you are in that head-space yourself. So, before talking with your child, it’s worth taking inventory of your own feelings and maybe talking them through with a partner or friend.

For decades, abortion foes have been preaching shame and guilt, demeaning women and couples who choose not to carry forward ill-conceived pregnancies. They deny that women and their partners often think deeply about whether to carry forward an unexpected pregnancy, and that under difficult circumstances they often make decisions guided by prudence, responsibility, wisdom and love. Some abortion foes even lie about health and mental health impacts of abortion (which is far, far safer than carrying a pregnancy to term), so that when bad things happen people will blame themselves. If the shame and guilt and misinformation have gotten inside of you, then you may first need to process through your own feelings before talking with your child. Only by taking care of ourselves can we take care of the children we love.

Keep dialogue open

As you broach the topic of abortion with your child, remember that conversation means two people get to talk. Ask your child questions. Let her ask you questions. The tone can be serious or, if you are talking about things like chickens and eggs, lighthearted. Pay attention to your child’s interest and mood; you can always circle back to the topic if she is signaling that the time isn’t right. If you watch, you will find fitting windows of opportunity.

In parenting, most topics require more than one conversation. Some require several conversations over the course of years—and abortion is no different. But don’t be surprised if the topic isn’t as big a deal to your child as it is to you, especially if you open up dialogue early on. I’m reminded of a story I heard about a mom explaining to her kindergartener that the child’s two aunties loved each other and were a couple and were going to get married even though they were both women. The child listened patiently and then asked, “Can I have another cookie?”

Valerie Tarico is a psychologist and writer in Seattle, Washington, and the founder of Wisdom Commons. She is the author of "Trusting Doubt: A Former Evangelical Looks at Old Beliefs in a New Light" and "Deas and Other Imaginings." Her articles can be found at valerietarico.com.

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