'I Was Almost a School Shooter' Writes 'Family Man' Following Parkland Shooting—Lack of Access to a Gun Stopped Him

"I had a severe lack of love, and I really think this kid did too."

Aaron Stark who penned the open letter stating, " I was almost a school shooter."
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If there is a mental health issue underlying school shootings, it is love—or the lack thereof—says Aaron Stark, who this week wrote an open letter about how he "was almost a school shooter" in the mid-1990s. Instead, 25 years later, Stark says he is a "father and family man."

He says his inability to access assault weapons made all the difference.

He was prompted to share his story after the Parkland, Florida shooting, in which an outcast 19-year-old former student of the school shot and killed 17 people.

Stark writes in his letter that, while he didn't "carry out anything" or "hurt anyone," he almost did—and likely would have, if he'd had access to a gun.

"[T]here is one thing that would have made it all different. One thing, that if it was in the equation, would have ended up in terror. I didn't have access to an assault rifle," Stark writes. "I was almost a school shooter."

On a Facebook video post by "Next with Kyle Clark," Stark reads his story aloud from a phone. Below the video is the caption: "America's sad history of school shootings does not include Denver's North High School in the mid-1990s, because the shooting never happened. This is an open letter, by Aaron Stark."

Stark writes: "People say mental health is the issue. And that's true. My mental health was in sad shape, I was severely depressed and suicidal, I felt like I had nothing at all in life to look forward to and so I literally had nothing to lose. When someone has nothing to lose, they can do anything, and that thought should be terrifying. So yes, mental health was an issue.

"A bigger issue was love. I had a severe lack of love, and I really think this kid did too....

"If you see someone who looks like they need love, give it to them. Even a small hug, a word, or a smile could actually save lives. Compassion is the only real way we can stop this. Love people even when they don't deserve it."

Watch Aaron Stark read his letter in the video below, or read the entire letter

April M. Short is a freelance writer who focuses on health, wellness and social justice. She previously worked as AlterNet's drugs and health editor. 

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