A Soldier Speaks: Robert Sarra

By Lakshmi Chaudhry, AlterNet. Posted October 29, 2004.

Editor's Note: This is the fourth in a series of profiles of some of the tens of thousands of Iraq War veterans who have come home bearing the scars of battle – emotional and physical wounds that may never heal unless the nation pays them the attention and care that they deserve. We at AlterNet believe that in an election defined by a deep and bitter partisan divide, it is the one issue that can and must bring us all together as Americans.

When Rob Sarra headed out to Iraq in January, 2003 as an infantry sergeant, he had no illusions about the darker side of combat. But the 31-year old was eager to do his duty to his country and to the United States Marine Corps.

But one incident would change almost everything this soldier believed in for the most of his life. It was the day he opened fire on an unarmed Iraqi woman. When he saw the white flag in hands of a dead woman that he'd mistaken for a suicide bomber, Rob began to question the war, and his role as one of its foot soldiers. And though he remained devoted to the Marine Corps, he never felt quite the same again about his presence in Iraq.

Rob returned home in June, 2003, and quit the military soon after. Still suffering from post traumatic stress disorder, his entry into civilian life was marked by alcoholism and later therapy. Rob finally made peace with his war experience by taking on the mantle of an anti-war activist – an unlikely vocation for someone who – as he told the students in Texas – had always seen protesters as hippies who had "no right to protest and just hated the military." He is now the co-founder of Iraq Veterans Against the War, the only anti-war organization comprised entirely of soldiers who served in Iraq.

Rob spoke to AlterNet about his road from soldier to activist from his apartment in Chicago.

Is there one memory from the war that still stays with you?

Yeah, there are a bunch, actually. The day we were getting ready to cross the border, I'll never forget that. My whole battalion was gathered around our commander. We were out in the middle of the Kuwaiti desert. I remember looking around at the faces of all the guys, and all of sudden, we all knew: this was it. This was the real deal. Our battalion chaplain was anointing everyone with oil. It was a very emotional time.

The next one is moving up towards Baghdad, going through the city of Al Nassiriyah. That was really our first taste of warfare. Seeing the dead Iraqis and destroyed vehicles … Getting shot at for the first time. I look back on it and wonder if I was really there. It's just a very surreal thing.

The incident with the woman still stays with me – though I try to keep it at the back of my mind.

I was sitting on top of an armored vehicle about 200 yards away. A woman starts walking out of this town towards a second armored vehicle with a bunch of Marines on it. They were waving their arms and telling her to stop, but she kept moving towards them. She was dressed in all-black, completely covered, wearing a burqa. And she had a bag under one arm.

My thought process at the time was that either she was going to walk up to this vehicle and explode – and kill a bunch of Marines. Or I can take shot at her and stop it from happening. We'd had reports of suicide bombers in the area. So I raised my rifle and fired two shots. As the second shot went off, the Marines in the other vehicle opened up on her, with everything from M-16s to 40 millimeter grenades.

Lakshmi Chaudhry is senior editor of AlterNet. This profile was made possible with the assistance of Patricia Foulkrod, the producer/director of The Ground Truth.

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