Literary self-loathing: How Jonathan Franzen, Elizabeth Gilbert and more keep it at bay
Self-loathing is in the writer's blood. When you’re an artist of any kind, there’s no certainty that what you’re working on won’t be a complete failure. But when writers reach a certain level of fame, when they make Oprah's Book Club or the cover of Time magazine, surely they don’t struggle with the same massive insecurities we lesser known writers face?
The answer, of course, is that it’s human nature to struggle with oneself. That icky feeling of discontent we often experience is what sometimes inspires the best art.
“I experience shame and self-reproach more or less continually,” Jonathan Franzen (author of "Freedom") told me. “The only way to deal with it is to keep trying to immerse myself in the fictional dream and hope that good sentences come out of that. Once there are good sentences on the page, I can feel a loyalty to them and start following their logic, and take refuge from myself.”
I love the idea of the writer taking refuge from who he is by putting words on the page. Writing, in fact, provides a much needed escape or confrontation with our worst emotions. It’s just so hard to get to that blissful place where the words are all that matters.